Magic Time

Dear Zeon,
It's a windy night,
40's weather
Christmas time.
You are in your crib
tall for your age
still sucking on a pacifier.
You are getting so big!
Where is my peanut
that could not move a muscle without my help?
My little bundle of joy,
don't grow up too fast...
the taller you get,
the closer I get to my Golden years.
I enjoy these peachy ones,
watching you play in our concrete patio,
finding every puddle to mud up your clothes.
May you have a magical childhood,
God grant us peace in which to lay the foundation of your heart.
Mommy loves you dear boy,
now and always
on this windy night
during Christmas time.
Sweet Dreams Zeon.

New House

Dear Zeon,
We bought you a home
to run and play in
to get your first puppy
and later
bury him nine years later...
here you will learn about life and death
you will have your first crush
and your first broken heart
you will feel and learn what you feel
and why
and when to move on.
We worked hard to get you here
and I feel proud and anxious
knowing what awaits you in the years ahead
but know this,
we will always be beside you
in life and beyond
ready to steady you
when life gives you an unexpected push
off the path you choose to follow.
welcome home son.
Love Mommy

Sweet Zeon, Poem

Dear Sweet Zeon,
I watch you as you sleep;
your little nose a button
on your smooth satin skin.
Innocently you cough,
and my heart skips a beat.
I plead with God
to keep you healthy.
I frantically run
to get
an asthma treatment from the fridge,
hoping,
hoping,
it is just a case of rhinitis,
runny nose
and nothing more.
Little Angel of mine,
be blessed with health,
now and always.
Love,
Mommy

Walking & Talking

Dear Zeon,
You are a year and a month. You are an absolutely gorgeous creation of God. You are also trying to walk on your own. Right now you demand that people hold your hands to keep you steady as you find your balance. You are well on your well to run full throtle (and me after you) soon. I yry to enjoy these moments as much as possible for time is fleeting at a rapid rate and soon you will no longer seek my hands for support. Iy makes me want to cry that you will one day no longer need my steading hands to hold you as you walk. Always know though that I will always be there to pick you back up when the inevitable fall happens. I hope you run more than you fall, and that you always get up quickly and never look back. Always move forward. Love, mom

Operation Pamper

Dear Zeon,
You are one now and boy is your personality showing now! You are definitely a firecracker. You pretty much threw all the toys I gave you this morning while in the car and yelled the whole way to the daycare. When I got to grandma's house to pick you up, I thought you were asleep...EH, Wrong! You were in the playpen raising Heck! Grabbing anything in sight to throw at me. You play with me by pulling my hair and lip, laughing all the while and scream the minute I even try to change a dirty pamper.
When your Tia Maggie was on the phone with grandma, you blew a rasberry into the phone as a hello and then chuckled.
You're too cute. What am I going to do with you?
Mommy's little monster, I love you.
Love,
Mommy.

First Birthday Party at Joe Sherron Park

Dear Zeon,
Your first birthday party was a success! Your grand uncle and aunt brought the tables and chairs late, but other than that snafoo we did well. Your father complained that the menu was disorganized but everyone ate well off of churassco, burgers, hotdaogs and chicken. We had rice and fruit salad as well. The cake was delicious from don pan. The highlight of the day was the clown Yami. She was hilarious! She actually got your grumpy old grandpa to participate in the fun with your cousin damian. We took a picture of it. She had a heavy spanish accent and kept asking everybody with a frown if they wanted a kiss to cheer them up, "Doo ju vant a kizz?" it was so funny. You behaved beautifully. A perfect prince. By the end of the day you were in your diapers it was so hot. I love you . Love, mommy

Happy First Birthday Zeon!

Dear Zeon,
Happy Birthday baby! You made it, the first BIG DAY! Your day and you have been the perfect child thus far. You are my everything. Born on the day Michael Jackson and Farrah Fawcett died, you brought new life and talent into the world while theirs faded away. We celebrated your cousin's Karoline's birthday at Bird Bowl yesterday. It was a hoot. You played around with little Leah, all but two years old. Your little cousin by your titi and godmother will be here on July 6,20101 via c-section. Your godparents still do not know what they will be naming her! It makes me want to scream sometimes, how fustrating that is. Ah well, what can I do but be patient like I was the day you were born, one year ago today at 7:14 am. My little angel, you.
I love you.
Happy Birthday to my little prince.
Love,
Mommy

Cartoons

Dear Zeon,
You are not even a year old and the love affair with cartoons has already begun. You become completely transfixed by the likes of Curious George, sesame Street, particularly Elmo, Mickey Mouse and Sid the Science Kid to name a few. Before you discovered these characters, I was your world. I've been replaced by a drawing that talks.
They were not kidding when they called it an electronic babysitter. You even try to talk back to them you poor dear! As much as I am tempted by it, I refuse to get cable. I'd rather you go run outside and use your own imagination. That is what I had to do before my parents got cable for our home. Worst thing they ever did! We got so fat just sitting there allowing whatever smut came on the screen to corrupt our impressionable minds. I hope you do better than I did.
Love,
Mommy

Baptism, Baby Shower, and more

Dear Zeon,



You were Baptised May 16, 2010. Your Godparents are my sister Alex and her boyfriend, the father of her two children, Javier. It was a long time waiting in the church, three hours to be exact before the deed was done. I am so proud that I accomplished that for you. It was very important to me for you to become an official member of the Catholic Church.

Despite all the scandals with the priests, it does not make my faith waver. I even fiddle with the idea of putting you in a catholic school, but probably won't just to be on the safe side. Catechism will have to suffice at age 7 followed promptly by confirmation. It really tears me apart all this scandal.

Enough of the dark! Focus on the light! On the fact that my heart melted when I got your baptismal certificate in the mail. You looked angelic in your suit and behaved so well. I love you for that. You are my most precious gift ever. God bless you.
Love,
Mom

Baptism Day

Dear Zeon,
You are finally going to be baptised on May 16, 2010. You are not a year yet so I don't feel as bad as I would if I had waited longer. Your godparents will be my sister and her boyfriend the father of her two kids. You love them both very much. You should see your smile when they come in the room. You are such a handsome little boy. The apple of my eye. I thank God for you everyday. You make my life such a joy. Thank you. I hope your Baptism to the Lord goes well. May God bless us with a beautiful day on which to celebrate your membership into the church. Love, mommy

A Beautiful Day

Dear Zeon,
Today was a mommy and me day for you. Your father had to go down to Key Largo to promote a show door to door with your brother Omar. Normally we would have gone with him but it wouldn't have been fun stuck in a car all day while daddy went door to door. We stayed home instead and had fun just hanging out together. I finally found a face that makes you laugh out loud. I wish I could freeze that moment forever.
After a lifetime of trying to find Zen, of meditation, mantras, yoga, books, movies and documentaries, I have finally found the one thing that completely consumes me in the moment, you. You make me want to cherish right here right now with you. I hope you always seek me out the way you do when you need something now. The tears are streaming down my face just thinking about how happy you make me right now. I hope I can make your childhood as happy as possible.
I love you baby.

Love,
Mommy

Miami Children's Hospital

Dear Zeon,
Yesterday I had to take you to Miami Children's Hospital. You started running a high fever that would not go away. It tore at me what they had to do to you to find out what was making you so sick. You had just gotten out of having to wear a helmet then this happens. They poked you, prod you, held you down and all I could do was watch and try to help them do everything as quickly as possible to minimize the pain. The worst was having to draw your blood out. They couldn't find the vein and when they did they didn't draw enough and tried to do it one more time to no avail. I wanted to scream at them!!! Your poor little hand was all red from the rubber band they put around it.
I started to wonder if this is how the mothers who have their daughters genetalia mutilated felt like. They horror and haertbreak at watching your child suffer because you beleive it to be in thier best interest. What I saw them do to you is nothing to what they do to those little girls but still, the emotions that run through you. Part of me just wanted to pick you up and get the hell out of there. My rational part made me stay put. In the end they gave you an antibiotic shot and instructions to alternate tylenol with motrin to control your fever. So far so good. I have to give you your first dose of oral antibiotic and some tylenol soon.
I love you papi. I hope you have super kids with super immune systems so that you never have to feel what I felt when I saw you in such distress.
God bless you my son.

Love,
mommy